life is such an amazing thing... full of ups & downs ... filled w happiness, wonders, miracles as well as cruelties, unfairness & depressing issues... tah-da... i'm jus ranting meaningless stuff... well well.. i've gotten hall 12!!! yea... u know for my hostel stay on campus?? yupyup.. anywayz think i've got to move soon or someone may join me soon tt's only true if my assumption's exactly right i.e. na & ! are allocated to e same hall,i dunno if it's e same rm but.. anywayz she'd withdrawn so likely tt i'm left alone in a rm.. BUT e hall's rules & regulations states tt the e hall reserves e rights to ask to move to another place ( most likely to join another hopeless case like me) or another person may join me) i guess by now if all ppl end up w their rmmates all settled tt means supposedly if someone's joining me then she'll b an international student... yup.. tt's my side of story.. anyways.. think it'll b better if i'm left alone.. as if it's my own rm but may b quite scary still i'll feel more comfortable then sharing w a stranger i think.. yup...unless.. e stranger is a super nice person! :D pray hard*** wellz... i'm happy!! went shopping w dar on Sat!! really enjoyed myself!! love going shopping w dar.. perhaps cos i seldom does retail therapy w dar tt's y.. yup.. saw peeps frm leo club.. yanfang, yeeling, jaslyn & more.. ya.. n bought 2 tops!!! thanks dar!!! one frm mambo, one frm zara!! wanted to buy shoes for school 2 but can't find any tt i really like... ya.. heex.. :)
i'm feelin kinda down these few days.. or ve it ared lasted for weeks?? it's not pms... i dunno... i jus don't know what's my prob.. where's my cheeriness?? where's my lame-ness & crappiness... i know tt all these are idle & meaninless stuff but they make my life more lively & make me feel like a feather.. it seems like i'm weighed down by a rather heavy weight right now.. seriously... i dun think tt i'm going thru any difficult patch of my life tt may b e reason causing my depression.. it's nothing... i totally wasted my drivin lesson today.. e first lesson was alright.. e 2nd sucked big time... big big big time... i jus dun like e instructor.. jus dun like him!!!!! argh.... i'm jus gonna cancel one of my driving lessons tml.. i jus dun like going for driving lesson.. it's not fun.. mayb sometimes it's. but still.. i'm tired... sometimes i'm thinkin perhaps i shouldn't force myself to do something tt i dun like or i jus dun feel like doin.. perhaps tt's y i'm unhappy... i dun like driving lessons but i jus can't stop half way... i'm obliged to finish everythin.. i jus wan to get my license at e end.. but how long must i endure?? life sucks.. i hate myself.. i'm losin my self-esteem.. tt's v v bad... i'm sliding... i'm upset with my every aspect of life... dar's e only light in my life...but it doesn't always stays bright.. sometimes it flickers, but still e light is always there to guide me along.. but it's jus this uesless, hopeless me who always spoils everything.. cont'd later... disruption..
