i'M dOwn... very saD.... feeling depressed, lonely and all... i chose my own life, i deserved this... yet i'm feelin like tt now.. i'm confused.. dar, i can't always depend on u... i really wish i'll always... but i need to strike out my own... but i need u... sigh i'm such a useless bum... there's nothin bad happenin bet us... jus tt i feel so sianz, bored up in this hostel!!!! i want to go home yet i dun want to.... i'm so so indecisive!!!! i'm so so lethargic!!! i dun like advanced plans!!!! i dun wan t ve exams!!!! i hate presentations!!!! i dislike projects!!!! sigh... tt's life n tt's school... i'm sad... ;(
ya... today's e last day of recess...sigh... din really spend recess fruitfully... mon went driving then met dar to go shopping.... tue went driving again then went to my ah ma's house... sleep n overslept so din go for cls outing in e evening.. ha.. what kind of life is this man?? wed... went to meet dar for lunch then went back to hall... dad fetched... heex... was in hall loz... trying to do some work for IT project meeting on thur... saw everybody on msn... so almost everyone has been in hall since mon.. i've been missing out... heex... but they are back to study... can u believe it?? not my type... ha.. but i'm feelin left out n stressed out!!! ha... they're so kiasu!!! anyway met many ppl for dinner at can 13... ha.. like reunion.. got clsmate, ex colleague and og mates... ha... alright... then for thur went for project dicussion.. sigh... out of 5 ppl like only 2 were doing work... wth... anyways only did for a few hours cos some of them got some other meetings to attend... e rest of us talked crap until like 5 plus then i went back to my rm ro slp... din slp well e prev nite cos some stupid idiotic guys were watching soccer n shouting like nobody's biz... ya.. slept till 7 plus then met belle n gen for dinner at can 14... watched singapore idol after tt then went back to do WORK!!! ha a bit only la.. until 1 plus then went to bed le..friday went for cultural sub com outing at seoul garden at orchard... ha din cook... were sitting w 3 guys so... ya... conveniently.. heex... after tt went to buy my sandals @ lucky plaza!! then after tt went home.. yesterday was super sad.. nv go out@!!!! no mood to do work also... but met dar at 11plus to eat supper at jalan besar this dim sum place... v delicious.. heex.. and cheap... thanks dar!!! today.. hopefully can go shopping or watch movie?? shall ask dar later... Na if u read this... when are we watching our movie as promised?? sigh... think it'll b closed v soon... meet soon k?? k tt's abt it... wich me luck on my biz law assignm... i still can't do it.. sigh... gonna flunk... 20%!!!
oh no!!!heex... almost half of my recess is gone!!!
heex... ya... it's ared tues.. going wed.. n i've yet to sit down & study... girl...u better know?? sigh... going back to hall tml... got to look thru simnet n master excel & access... BUT i dun even ve ms office on my pc in hall to prac my skills.. heex... will find my way... wellz... rather anti-social today... nv go for my 1st cls outing @ marche heeren... heex... n know y?? i decided to happily slp till 5 plus then couldn't get home b4 6... yup.. i was at my grandma's after driving in e morn... yupz.. sorry kel.. hoped tt u did enjoy urself thou our clique's not there... he so wanted me to go to talk crap w him cos no one frm our clique is going except him.. so sad.. heex.. he even offered to fetch me to n fro loz... ha... i'm jus too lazy i guess.. went to dar's place after dinner..bought bird's nest 4 dar's mummy.. so sweet right?? heex... got hole in my pocket le.. sigh... wanted to get nice sandals frm lucky plaza if i've gone for e outing... but too bad... n dar's not buying for me... another big hole... BROKE BROKE BROKE!!! but i really dun ve enough nice pretty sandals to walk ard w... yea baby.. i'm gonna get it.. but got to choose... they've really nice ones there but e prices r quite steep... sigh.. if only i'm super loaded...what did i do yesterday?? ermz...went for driving then met dar @ yck... go shopping @ orchard.. ultra sad also... sigh.. dun find anything to buy except this bracelet frm far east... i paid for it myself thou dar offered to pay!! heex... actually it's a replica of my old one but tt's spoiled plus it's like half e price loz.. c diff bet things bought @ heeren & far east?? went to e sponsored shop also.. but can't find a thing i like... sigh... welll plans for e rest of recess... tml.. stay in hall... sad case.. thur... IT project meeting but i doubt it'll take e entire day.. friday got sub comm outing... but i really dun feel like going.. east coast park...it's so not me... wkend... will see... sigh recess is coming to an end soon... sobx.......
yeah!!!heex.. i'm having my recess now since today's my last day of lesson!!! heex... but actually i can't really feel e holiday mood..let's see what am i gonna do this one whole week... ermz... continue w driving which i've like neglected for like one & a 1/2 mths... but i only managed to book tml, mon & tue's lessons... ya.. will wait n see... ve got biz law assignment... 20% of final grade... 1000 words... really got to read up on what i've been missing... realised sch's like a whirlwind...first e pageant stuff has made me lagging behind sch for a mth... then after tt all e completion of quizzes & tutorials take up all my available time... of cos not forgettin my weekends r taken up by dar... yup.. Ob too... my grp hasn't started on e dicussion yet.. ha.. we're really e slackers man.. other groups r like starting to do ared... ya... sad case... IT.. we had a super short dicussion over lunch after biz law tut... so we're meeting on thur to do it proper but b4 tt got to master all e softwares using simnet... wth... y must they assume tt we ared knew ms office like ABC??? realised tt many ppl like to make assumptions nowadays & assumptions often lead to big mistakes or even disastrous outcomes... ya... well.. luckily... Econs is not taxing... nothing much to do... Econs is like my fave sub now.. so contradicting loz.. used to dislike econs so much back in JC... ha... all e other modules r like so hard to really grasp e concepts... think it's just me... nv really utilise my brains... ha.. lazy slack me.. heex... ;) alright.. really got to buck up.. it's like only one more mth to final exams?? wt**** horrible.... oh ya.. dear frenz i jus changed my phone # but u can still contact me thru' e old # cos i applied for e no. portability thingy... yup.. meanin ur call or sms to my old no. will b re-routed to my new no... yup.. high tech huh?? wellwell.. k la.. think it's enough... ppl enjoy life to e fullest ya???? smilez!!! ;)
why are they killing innocent children when they'd ve done something more constructive?? what good do they get out of this??? those heartless, inhumane, out of minds creatures!!! didn't they realise tt they themselves were once kids?? those helpless, naive, carefree cuties.... they've got no intention, no motives... what is this?? i mean... this cruelty can't jus go on like tt... are these ppl brain washed or what?? seriously... i wonder what are they thinking abt... argh........ they're so so poor thing... 400 dead... 400 know... sigh.... treasure ur loved ones & be contented w our lives....
yea... know y?? i blogged yesterday but my whole entry disappeared cos i wanted to put in e emotion icons... what-the-f***?? ha.. anways... today's a super slack day... had biz law tut... prof said tt i'm too quiet... but.. jus nothing for me to speak abt in cls...i only talk crap.. ya... finished @ 12.30 then had lunch w my tut grp... ha... funny... pierre commented tt kel,JR,WJ & I always v anti-social, always in our clique n always leave right after tut cls... & know what... he said tt Kel & I talk like we're a couple.. pls loz... my taste aren't tt bad... n i've dar n Kel has his eyecandy.. ha... they're watching garfield now... 1st date... ha... kel jus smsed me... cross fingers for him ya?? ha... ya... realised tt i dun ve to announce tt i'm attached or 'red-light' as ppl like to call it.. ppl ared know tt i'm attached.. dunno who's spreading... ha... N i got one more sch to add to my list, till now got ppl say tt i looked like i was frm NJ , NYJ & today Pierre said tt i looked like i was frm RJ.. tt was so off... ya... HJ said something abt some VJ ppl then looked @ me to c if i know tt person... i was like huh?? i'm not frm VJ... ya... think i've got a multi-JC look... meeting Celine dear tml... loooooooooooooooong time nv c her le... she's giving me my bday treatment tml... ha... vv vvvvv belated man... ya... back to today... after lunch went to Angelia's rm... not too bad.. heard tt hall 13 ve got peeping tom incidents... so scary.. n hall 12's so near... ya... think no ppl dare to do nasty things here cos we've got v gd security here... ha... heard there was this pervert who got beaten real badly when he was caught by e senoirs... ha.. yup... after tt brought angelia & kel to my rm while kel happily made himself so comfy... he's absolute mr-buay-zhi-tong..then they left... angelia to project meeting & kel to meet his eyecandy.. yup.. then JAstinian came to help me w my pc.. got prob again.. can't read my email.. ya... but he can't do anythin constructive... since both of us ve got nothing to do, we went to his rm wanting to check out pretty girls on friendster... then i suggested doin laundry.. ha... went down then got stuck in JR's rm for like 2 hrs...sigh.... oh ya.. when we were doing laundry, Jastinian found money($2.25) in e washing machine n we bought drinks using tt $ ... heex... evil... finally left JR's rm at ard 5... i'm back in my rm but got to go for e stupid investiture soon... sigh... so sick now.. y bother joing sub com when i'm such a slacker??? sigh.... wrong choice ma... dunno if i still wanna join ad hoc... but overseas expedition sounds exciting... & what abt D & D & FOC??? sigh... sucks... hate making decisions fr myself.... when can i grow up ??
